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I was 16 and my parents were out of
town so I decided to invite a few of (what I thought was) my closest friends
over. We were about 10 people there and we drank a bit of alcohol. I guess I
drank a lot cause I fell asleep on a sofa in a room where no one else were.
I woke up and saw what my so called friend was
doing to me. I froze and couldn't move a muscle, I guess I was in shock. I laid
there and sort of let it happen to me, and afterwards he told me not to tell
anyone, and I didn't for several years.
But I did get ptsd from it, I don't have it anymore but I will always have issues about it.
I really thought that this guy was my friend and this also made it really hard to trust people at all. I still find it hard to trust people . (maybe not only because of this)
I still, after 14 years, haven't told everyone who is close to me about it , I will find it easier to live with if they knew but I don't know how I would be able to tell them about it, it's never a good time to tell.
How do you tell someone? I don't really know. To be honest I've not been sober the times I did tell. An to be honest again I'm not this time either.
But I did get ptsd from it, I don't have it anymore but I will always have issues about it.
I really thought that this guy was my friend and this also made it really hard to trust people at all. I still find it hard to trust people . (maybe not only because of this)
I still, after 14 years, haven't told everyone who is close to me about it , I will find it easier to live with if they knew but I don't know how I would be able to tell them about it, it's never a good time to tell.
How do you tell someone? I don't really know. To be honest I've not been sober the times I did tell. An to be honest again I'm not this time either.